Injecting myself in the stomach

At least it's not the arm - AM I RIGHT

No, seriously, this whole experience is making me feel like a junkie. I'm unemployed, I may be homeless soon, and I'm stabbing myself with a needle in my bathroom.

I did not expect to feel so scummy.

I went round to a friend's house last night and because I need to inject myself at the same time each evening I took the hormones with me. Was like, "Er, do you mind if I shoot up in your bathroom?"

I guess it's not the same. Heroin would make me warm and fuzzy for several hours. These hormones are making my legs tingle and not- like - in a good way. I'm worried about my circulation. I've spent the last few days trying to elevate my legs and I haven't been to the gym. I'm hoping to go swimming on wednesday, but I don't know how safe that will be. I mean, I wouldn't go swimming drunk and I have a lot more experience being drunk than being full of random egg maturing hormones.

The first injection was really scary. I've had piercings, I have quite a large tattoo on my leg that hurt quite a lot. But I've never had to physically inject myself before. It felt really unnatural and I spent about five minutes holding the needle in one hand and my belly fat in the other and trying to persuade myself to do it.

But tonight was night three and I think I'm getting the hang of it. We'll see. I need to fly down to London later this week so I'll be taking the kit with me. In a way that's kind of cool.

I'm really proud of myself for going through with this after the scheduling looked like it was seriously going to get in the way of my other life plans.

I can do this!