Poppers

I've been trying to think what the nasel spray reminds me of, and I've figured it out. Four and a bit years ago, when I was in my first year of university, a gay male friend of mine let me try some poppers before we hit the clubs.

Taking a snort of liquid from a small bottle is exactly the same action (although a nasel spray nosle would have been useful at the time). It's muscle memory.

I think the reason my friend had them in the first place (and I don't know why poppers are plural since it's a little liquid in a little bottle) was that they relax your asshole so anal sex hurts less. I was just curious though. I've got a curious nature.

Right at the start of the Aids crisis there was some speculation that it was poppers that were causing GRID. I have some photocopies of old issues of Gay News that mention it. But I didn't find out that snippet of gay history until after I'd tried them.

God, thinking about GRID always makes me feel really sad. The thing that struck me from reading the old copies of Gay News was the fear and the crushing horror these community journalists were feeling. It just struck you how monumentally unfair it was, after all the trials and victories of the 60s and 70s, for the fear and suspicion and discrimination to just come flooding back.

I need to remember to switch over to the second bottle of nasal spray.

And I must remember to keep hydrated.

My thighs really hurt. But I think that's because I did 32 squats yesterday.